LETTER IN AN AQUARIUM GLASS

Letter in an aquarium glass

   

         On that busy day I received a text from my brother that my father is in the hospital. When I heard that news I feel weak. Seeing my father in bed of sickness. No way his the one who taught me how to be strong. But now here he is lying on bed. Yes I became stronger because of the way he nurture me but seeing him on that situation made me cry. Its not new to me because since I was young he has this illness. But now its different  his in and out of the hospital. I pray to God  to extend the life of my father. I have still dreams for him that he may  see the fruits of his labor. Not all people could  understand him  but since he is my father the blood of my blood and the flesh of my flesh I learn to understand him. He is my greatest fan and critics as well. But in all  this course he is my greatest motivator. He push me to my limits.
    When I was a child I was very shy that I hide myself  to anybody. But now I can talk to different kinds of people from all walks of life; that is because my father push me to my limits. I remember those times that we have big arguments to the point that he curse me.
    My greatest fan became my greatest enemy that time. And since he curse me I leave our house telling to myself that I won't return till I prove myself to him. That I can stand on my own and I will be successful on my own account. I will prove to him that he is wrong.
    With just a hundred pesos I try to stand on my own, telling myself that I can make it. for almost a year of leaving our home with  no news or communication with my family I cried every moment but I try to control my emotions.
    One day I dreamed I heard a voice calling my name and a shadow appeared handling me an aquarium glass with a letter inside that addresses to me. The voice told me to forgive him from all his shortcomings and use the valuable lessons that he taught me and leave the things that is not valuable. Later on I recognized  that is my father's voice.
     It is just a dream but I cried a bucket of tears till I wake up I'm still crying . My subconscious told me that even my father curse me I still love him and I can't forgive myself if something worst  happened to him. The next day I decided to return to our home and thanks God my father is alive and kicking. We are not that expressive just a look on each others eyes we can express the deepest sentiments to each other. That's why even we have no communication that time our heart speak.
     During those times I learn to forgive my father I also learn to accept him the way he is and I understand why his acting that way. I learn to understand why he push me to my limits to the point that he curse me. That is because he want me to be successful, to get out of my cocoon, stand on my own and fly high. In the end I want to thank my father. He taught me to be strong, courageous, independent and a champion.
     Like that letter inside  the aquarium glass I understand that my father's love to me is very fragile that he takes care of me not to harmed by anybody. He protect me  in the core of his heart. But like that aquarium  glass he removed the water for me not to drown and he allow it to be opened so I can explore the world.
     Let's restore, reunite and love our basic community which is our family. May the good Lord bless our family.

Letter in an aquarium glass

   
 

BLESSED ARE THEY WHO PERSECUTE YOU

These words are so strange for me the first time I hear it till the time I experience it. I said how can I bless those people, they hurt me emotionally and despised me! For the endth time I experience again how to be persecuted. Telling things you are not, judging you for whom you are not. Telling you false accusations. Speaking to you like you are the dumbest animal in the world. It’s like “I can tell you all the things I want to say”. “I can do whatever I want to do because you are my slave.” Being human I have senses like them but they dumped me like a trash. They want you to do things like what they have said as exact as they want because if not you are wrong they want you to speak like what they command, to smile like what they want, to write like what they want. On my silent world I said “I’m not a robot”. What’s the use of my brain if everything was program from there likes and desire. That’s why I was designed as individual, different from others. And now you want me to be what you want your not my God, I have my own.

They are the modern “Pedis” who are greedy they want to pay for the amount of chicken but want to get a cow. And sometimes they want it to get for free but when they sold something they sold it for a higher price. What a heart of a greedy person. They don’t think that time will come and they will leave this world with empty hands.

These people are good manipulator, they could get what they want and blame you for what you have done all they said “you have done the wrong thing. “Look at me I can do all things I have a great career because I did my best hope you’ll do the same.” I said it for your own good. Sounds great but they are boasting there own self so that you look them as a model to be followed but hey! I have my own criteria to follow, don’t impose yourself on me because we are different person.

In the later part I’m thankful to these kind of people now I know what it means to “bless those who persecute you.” Because of them I learn to dream higher. I said to myself “I will not stay on this condition forever” now as I do this thing I want to quit as a slave and live a life of success I will face my fear by hook or by crook I will get it. This is the sweet revenge thank you for those who persecute these dumb sheep because you awaken the tiger in me.

Even the painful experience will turn into positive for those who persevere. Painful experience, extract the true character of a dumb sheep into strong, fighter, dreamer and achiever. Now as I end this epistle I’m looking toward the clear sky ready to write the new story of success.