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| Letter in an aquarium glass |
On that busy day I received a text from my brother that my father is in the hospital. When I heard that news I feel weak. Seeing my father in bed of sickness. No way his the one who taught me how to be strong. But now here he is lying on bed. Yes I became stronger because of the way he nurture me but seeing him on that situation made me cry. Its not new to me because since I was young he has this illness. But now its different his in and out of the hospital. I pray to God to extend the life of my father. I have still dreams for him that he may see the fruits of his labor. Not all people could understand him but since he is my father the blood of my blood and the flesh of my flesh I learn to understand him. He is my greatest fan and critics as well. But in all this course he is my greatest motivator. He push me to my limits.
When I was a child I was very shy that I hide myself to anybody. But now I can talk to different kinds of people from all walks of life; that is because my father push me to my limits. I remember those times that we have big arguments to the point that he curse me.
My greatest fan became my greatest enemy that time. And since he curse me I leave our house telling to myself that I won't return till I prove myself to him. That I can stand on my own and I will be successful on my own account. I will prove to him that he is wrong.
With just a hundred pesos I try to stand on my own, telling myself that I can make it. for almost a year of leaving our home with no news or communication with my family I cried every moment but I try to control my emotions.
One day I dreamed I heard a voice calling my name and a shadow appeared handling me an aquarium glass with a letter inside that addresses to me. The voice told me to forgive him from all his shortcomings and use the valuable lessons that he taught me and leave the things that is not valuable. Later on I recognized that is my father's voice.
It is just a dream but I cried a bucket of tears till I wake up I'm still crying . My subconscious told me that even my father curse me I still love him and I can't forgive myself if something worst happened to him. The next day I decided to return to our home and thanks God my father is alive and kicking. We are not that expressive just a look on each others eyes we can express the deepest sentiments to each other. That's why even we have no communication that time our heart speak.
During those times I learn to forgive my father I also learn to accept him the way he is and I understand why his acting that way. I learn to understand why he push me to my limits to the point that he curse me. That is because he want me to be successful, to get out of my cocoon, stand on my own and fly high. In the end I want to thank my father. He taught me to be strong, courageous, independent and a champion.
Like that letter inside the aquarium glass I understand that my father's love to me is very fragile that he takes care of me not to harmed by anybody. He protect me in the core of his heart. But like that aquarium glass he removed the water for me not to drown and he allow it to be opened so I can explore the world.
Let's restore, reunite and love our basic community which is our family. May the good Lord bless our family.
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| Letter in an aquarium glass |
